Wednesday, July 30, 2008
i wanted to wish him happy bday last friday coz it was his bday but i didnt have the guts to...after all i'm tryin to forget bout him but somehow or other i just cnt seem to get him out of my mind...i dnt know why...n he is leavin back to the states on the 22nd of august....
worst of all was today....n it was during the add math period that reminded me of him becoz of the smile that was in my teacher's face...it really look so much like his smile when she smile although the teacher is a women....now the worst part is when i'm doin my add math hmwork i just cnt seem to focus at it becoz add math reminded me so much of him coz i remember him tellin me once he hated add math so much but now he likes it...thats why when i have to do it i really need to make my mind clear but how???and michelle isnt helpin me much!!!!!i'm goin out of my mind tryin to stop thinkin bout him or whatever had happen.....HELP!!!!!!!I JUST WISH THAT THE CLOCK COULD STOP TICKIN.....
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3:12 AM
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008
很多人都说爱情是不一定要拥用的,但是在这世上有多少人做得到????
爱情到底是什么?????我真的很想知道....谁能告诉我????
我想他...我喜欢他....但是我也很恨他.....我也恨我自己.....
我恨他因为他让我喜欢他......我恨我自己因为我无法控制我自己不去喜欢他....
为什么?????
我知道我无法拥有他,我也没想过要拥有他....因为他已经是别人的.....
我也真心祝福他....但是为什么我还是无法把他忘了????
谁能来告诉我,我该怎么办?????
我真的真的很恨他!!!!!!!!!!!!
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3:10 AM
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hahaha...i'm so happy....exams finally over.....but i hav a very good idea that i'm about to fail a couple of sub coz i didnt study at all....hahahahaha.............
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3:04 AM
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
i dont know whats wrong with me....my heart for things my life...i dnt know....i cnt talk with some ppl in my class coz they dont understand what i'm goin through so instead of helpin me they end up pissing me off.....they r just so old fashion i guess....total nerds....all they talk bout is books books n books....i cnt stand it....they r just not communicating enough with the outside world...i dnt know they r always talkin bout schlorships n crap like that i dnt knw if i cnt stand this any longer...i'm goin total nuts with this ppl......i'm lost....what i know nw is i m definitely nt through with the feelings i hav for the guy or whatever....i really dnt knw i'm lost......
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12:50 AM
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Saturday, July 5, 2008
my heart is no longer with me,
it has gone somewhere else....
i'm not focus at all with what i'm doin
y cnt i do something bout it???
i tired but everything or rather every step i take seems to fail
especially to things that i look forward in doin'
when i'm there i thought everything would be fine,but my heart doesnt seem so....
i'm not focus at all!!!!?????
am i lying to myself???thats the ques to be ask....
are things really forgotten????or am i just fakin' it??????
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6:56 PM
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