Monday, October 27, 2008
something is wrong with me today....i dnt understand y but i just hav a really insecure feelin bout it....i feel awkward....the feelin of untrustworthiness is back yet again hauntin me....he vivid images comin back again y???feelin towards others r nw different for me...i dnt knw what they r thinkin n hav no intention whatsoever of knwin it....i just dnt feel right in place...y is the feelin of it comin back to me?????i just feel so insecure....
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9:11 PM
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Sunday, October 26, 2008
its been 2 days since the finals ended...n the worst new ever or rather nt the worst yt....is that i just got my add maths results which really stinks like hell....n 3 stacks of the holiday hmwork which is suffocating!!!!DAMN IT MAN....why must life be so hard!!!!
but anyway i'm tryin my best to enjoy myself nw be4 deciding to start studyin again....so i started my fav book....PARADISE....it was a really great book....its nt like what others think of it being a dirty book...the story is about a man who meet a wealthy gril of 18 at a ball....they got married right after they meet each other 4 only 6 days becz the girl was pregnant....but soon after that they had to break up coz he had to go to venesula to work....but the bad part was that the girls dad is tryin all is best to separate the both of them which is very cruel of him.....by tell the man that her daugther actually aborted their child instead of tellin him the real truth that she miscarried....haiz!!!the best part is where they encountered each other again after 11 years of being separated....when they meet they both dispised each other becoz of the lie they were told.....bbut they had a happy endin which is what i hope for....so the story is really amazing n breath takin....its nt DIRTY BTW....its ROMANTIC!!!!!
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8:42 AM
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Thursday, October 23, 2008
thanks god that the finals r finally over...been sufferin like crazy since last week...but what the hack it ended just couple of hours ago...nw i'm free....i cn finally gt back to what i use to do nw...no more txtbooks for a month then back to studies again coz of spm....haiz!!!!!why is life always bout studies n nothing else????anyway why do i even bother now as long as i'm free nw n getting back to doin what i like n what i prefer.....so who cares....right nw i'll just hav to sit back n relax while i wait for my results to backfire......hahahaha.....time to enjoy nw!!!!!YIPEE!!!WHO CARES WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT!!!!
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3:27 AM
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Saturday, October 18, 2008
seriously....i've been thinkin is there really such thing as true friendship????i really dont knw becoz i dnt believe in that anymore than i used to.....i've seen too much of that crap lately....it just wakes me up more bout such things as friendship.....i dnt really trust it coz i've been through it....there r only a few person nw that i consider them as my true friends....n the rest????i dnt knw...cn they even be consider as my friends???i hav doubt bout that....coz all i knw is that true friends will always be there for u no matter what happens....n they dont go behind u n do crap stuff....when u neeed help they help u as much as they cn...not turnin their backs against u when u need them n kickin u in the ass without u knwin...thats nt friends to me...coz they r just freakin takin advantage of u!!!!i've seen enough coz when u ask them in smthing that u r weak in they tells u that they r weaker n cnt help u askin u to freakin go find some1 else better...is it so hard to lend a helpin hand to others????is it that FREAKIN HARD????i just dont get it....just becoz u r smart doesnt mean u r everything in the world....just becoz they r smart doesnt mean that other r dump!!!just beocz they r smart they hav to look down on u...is that it????n it doesnt mean that i hav to follow them coz i knw how good m i n how bad m i in things n i'm not afraid of admitting it...coz i knw myself....maybe its just me but i startin to find that most ppl r just so fake....they seems so nice but there is smthing behind all of it.....we r all goin through trials n errors in our teenage life nw...if we dont help ppl out nw then dont expect ppl to help u when r in trouble...thats the simplest thing of all.....
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1:53 AM
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its been a freakin long time since i last sign into my blog....haiz...its all becoz of my bloody finals n i hav another 1 more fuckin week to go....DAMN IT!!!!its so fuckin torturing!!!!!i just hate exams....it gives me a bloody headache!!!!!!!just dont like studyin all day long but what to do i hav to go to sch n thats what i do as a bloody freakin student!!!!!i'll just hav to suffer 4 another week n i'm free frm hell but not for long...........haiz!!!!!TIME IS ALL IT IS!!!!!!
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1:49 AM
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