~About Me~ Ee Lin
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wrong at times....yet feel so right.....sometimes very confuse....I'm NUMB...I'M DEAD!!!!I HATE PLEASING PPL...GETTIN REALLY TIRED WITH THE HIPOCRITS...

hmmm....thats a good question.... maybe u can get me a brand new tennis racquet....hahaha...that be good...AIN'T IT??? AND of coz would be my fav author Judith McNaught books...which *Denise always shakes her head* BESIDES THAT i would really appreciate it if i get an IPOD...a guitar too perhaps.....HAHAHA.....askin too much


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I havent been writing my blog for the past 3 days.....and ever seens the reborn of myself I feel much lively now coz I hav no longer anything else to worry about...FRIENDS OR NO FRIENDS....IT ALL DOESNT REALLY MATTER TO ME ANYMORE THAN IT USED TO BE.....I'M MUCH MORE HAPPIER NOW THEN EVER altough its kinda boring coz there isnt much to do for me other than all my holidays hmwork which till now I still cnt seem to finish....but anyway I'm goin for my trainin quite regularly now coz my tournament is comin soon which is why I hav to work my ass of every freakin day....but I'm enjoyin it altough its kinda tiring with all the runnin n stuff but i find it much more entertainin that way.....besides that I hav cut down a lot on watchin TELE....goin ONLINE n STUFF....BUT I'M DEFENITELY NOT CUTTING DOWN ON READIN.....HAHAHA.......I hav just finish another book which I bought in BOARDERS this wed....HAHAHA...I just cnt wait to get my hands on more of the books....n I'm defenitely lookin forward to my trip to KL during Christmas so that I cn drag my cous along with me n ask her to take me to the BIGGEST BOARDERS in KL....HAHAHA....I JUST CNT WAIT!!!!!!YIPEEE!!!!!ITS THE BEGINNING OF MY REBORN...HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

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Life's been kinda boring lately.....nothing much is goin on other than my training for the coming tournament....besides that,been busy with my stupid holiday homework which never seem to be able to finish....goin 4 swiming quiet regularly now coz i hav to build up for the tournament as well....other than that nothing seems to be happenin....n i hav already finish all my story books...just hav to wait till 2mr so that i cn go to boarders to buy more books....thats about it.....XP

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HAHAHAHA!!!!!!yesterday was sooo cool!!!!!THE SHOWDOWN OF CHAMPIONS OF 2 DIFFERENT ERAS ROCK MAN!!!!!! I especially like the match between FEDERER AND BLAKE...their match was really amazing the balls that they were hitting were so hard and so fast....they are really the most amazing players of all.....I really admire the determination that BLAKE has.....he has gone through so many rough patches in life but yet he is back in the tennis court playing the best tennis......besides that,the doubles match between BORG/FEDERER AND McENROE/BLAKE was also fantastic.....I get to see the pairing between the 2 eras of champ....the match was the funniest of all as McENROE lives up to his name by complainin the most on court,throwin his racquet...while BORG just looked on to him and smile....HAHAHA...it was really entertainin....FEDERER AND BLAKE was also joinin in foolin around in court....


This was the best day ever....THE SHOWDOWN OF CHAMPIONS this year was much better than THE CLASH OF TIMES last year.....through this matches I get to see all their strokes which are simple and easy...I like McENROE'S left handed surf....BORG'S double handed backhand...and also FEDERER'S AND BLAKE'S backhand slice.....


TOO BAD...although the match was fantastic but this trip to KL isnt soo good coz we when and left at the same day which is a rush.....and the match only ended at 12 plus.....by the time we reach PENANG its already 3.30 in the morning and I didnt get to buy anything in KL except for chocolates.....ANYWAY it doesnt matter coz I'll be goin back to KL again in DECEMBER.....


Well thats all for today.....

I ranted at (: (:; 5:16 PM

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HAHAHA.....its such a great day today....there is no longer EELIN....its someone else now but just with the same name....anyway today was fun...all my cousin came out expect for the dump one in KL who is too lazy to come out....it is my grandpa's 1st aniversery today thats why they r all out in penang....I also got myself a new adidas watch...its nice but expensive...its big too...but i dnt hav to pay for it...my aunt from JB bought it for me.....


Other than that,today was quite fine....not really fine...i dont knw....the youngest cous of mine is the noisiest she cry for a whole ten minutes...DAMN....that was long!!!my bro couldnt stand the noise...n he said he's never ever gettin married...HAHAHA....what a thing to say...but I'm also wondering myself how am I too have kids next time???the r just too noisy for me...HAIZ!!!thats just too hard for me to say bout that right now....HAHAHA...just enjoy while they r around....

I ranted at (: (:; 5:20 AM

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I'm tired...I'm exhausted....I wanna give up!!!!!i can't stand it any longer...I'll go crazy if I keep on tryin!!!! I'm already standin at the edge of everything...I dont want to fall all the way down yet I cant help it!!!!!EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.....RIGHT NOW THE NEWS IS i'M DEAD....I NO LONGER EXIST!!!!!


I'M DEAD.....THE EELIN THAT EVERYONE ONCE KNOW IS NO LONGER EXIST.....SHE'S DEAD.....LONG LONG AGO SHE'S DEAD......THE NEXT TIME WHEN YOU SHE HER AGAIN IT WILL NO LONGER BE THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE...COZ SHE'S DEAD!!!!!


I cant do it anymore...I'm tired...everytime when there's a problem what people have in mind first is always to find EELIN....but what happens when EELIN needs help???what happen when she's in trouble????hs anyone ANYONE at all think of her????the answer is NO!!!!!NO!!!no one at all tought of her!!!!no one at all had even have the courtesy to lend a helpin hand to her...all they know is to run as far away as they could manage!!!!!EXCEPT THE ONLY ONE PERSON I KNOW WOULD STAY AND HELP ME OUT....AND SHE IS THE ONE AND ONLY WHO IS WILLIN TO HELP ME.....I CANT THANK HER MUCH MORE FOR BEING THERE FOR ME TO AT LEAST LISTEN TO ME...I'M THANKFUL TO YOU FOR THAT....


Right here right now...I'm too tired and too exhausted to run anymore.....I'm very tired.....very tired....I cant feel myself anymore...I can feel anything anymore....I'M NUMB....EVERY NUMB....COZ I'M DEAD!!!!


PS:EELIN IS DEAD!!!!SHE NO LONGER EXIST!!!!

I ranted at (: (:; 7:18 PM

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Restreaming was done today....as expected I'm not long in sc1....ask me if I'm sad ask if I'm happy...I really dont know how to answer if anyone were to ask me that...THE "BEST" THING IS THAT i MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HOLD ANY MORE POST NEXT YEAR BECAUSE i'M DOWN TO SC2....I dont know if I really want the post????I'm really tired thinkin of what I have to face when I go back to school next year...I really dont want to...I dread goin back....IS THERE STILL HOPE????IS THERE STILL FAITH????I want to believe that but I cant...everyone in school just seem so shock to find that I hav dropped....as if this was the most impossible thing of all....but I have already known it long before the results were out.....I really dont know what more I wanna do or what more can I do?????

I ranted at (: (:; 9:50 PM

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will it be DOOMS DAY  2mr for me???? I dnt knw n I really dnt want to knw

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ok today was just soo weird!!!!!!

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DAMN IT!!!!!!today is like HELL for me......hav been runnin round the bloody school for the entire morning...besides that being scolded by that BLOODY FREAKIN FUCKIN WHORE just becoz i didnt collect the pendrive for her in the morning....has she hav no brains????i hav been runnin all around ever since the morning i reach school n didnt gt to sit my bloody ass down until after recess be4 goin for my other errands that was ask to be done by other teachers which has to be done at that time itself....she's a FUCKIN WHORE...she's as sluty a bitch!!!!!SHE DESERVE TO FREAKIN DIE!!!!!started tellin me that i hav no responsiblities for what i hav been ask to do....do u freakin think i dont 1 2 do my job!!!!!if she thinks its so bloody fuckin easy to get everything done it a short while y the freakin hell cnt she do it herself!!!!!!tellin me i got no responsibilities as a monitor in front of the whole class!!!!!THATS WHAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF!!!!!she's a fuckin whore!!!!BLOODY bitch!!!!!!says that my responsibilities is gonna carry marks for my bloody moral assesment next year i seriously dont freakin care if it carries marks for the stupid bloody assesment all i knw is that i hav been workin my ass of the whole entire day n what the fuckin hell did i get???got scolding from her for not carrying my duties properly!!!!!no wonder ppl calls her the soya bean coz she has a brain the size of just a bean....n she doesnt think with the brains god gave her....she thinks with her ass n the brains the size of a bean!!!!she's a brainless moronic asshole!!!!!i would hav scream at her just nw if it werent for them to stare at me to stop me....if only i werent wearin my bloody monitor uniform i swear i would hav shouted at her in front of every1!!!!!damn her!!!!!

another thing that really pisses me of today....was my freakin fuckin useless moronic asshole ass....when i reminded her so many times to come to sch today so that i cn finish up for my board stuff n hand it up in time to teacher....n guess what she didnt show up in sch today n didnt even bother to lt me knw that she was nt comin....i was lucky enough to ask another of my friend to stay back n help me to get the thing the teacher wanted done....if i didnt hav the sense to ask my friend to stay back i would hav ben hangin in the sch alone like a fool.....this ppl has got no responsibilities at all!!!!!n there the bloody whore dare questions me bout my responsibilities!!!!!!

I ranted at (: (:; 7:00 AM

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theres another 1 more week to the sch hols and i hav tons of add math hmwork to complete n i havent even dont a single thing bout it yet!!!!damn...not whenever i see smthing that has to do with that sub i feel like pukin!!!!!

I ranted at (: (:; 2:26 AM

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