~About Me~
Ee Lin
of CLS
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my e-mail:madden_dreamer@live.com.my
my facebook as well....
I feel...
wrong at times....yet feel so right.....sometimes very confuse....I'm NUMB...I'M DEAD!!!!I HATE PLEASING PPL...GETTIN REALLY TIRED WITH THE HIPOCRITS...
what you can buy me for Christmas...
hmmm....thats a good question....
maybe u can get me a brand new tennis racquet....hahaha...that be good...AIN'T IT???
AND of coz would be my fav author Judith McNaught books...which *Denise always shakes her head*
BESIDES THAT i would really appreciate it if i get an IPOD...a guitar too perhaps.....HAHAHA.....askin too much
as how as it is to be....always expect the unexpected.....thats all i cn say...i did it again the same mistake that i had done months before....but even worst....i dont knw how i feel this time i dont feel crush....instead i felt totally NUMB.....i dnt knw why...the ***s i receive today isnt as good as the one i had be4.....when it was goin on i felt nothing but just the pain in it.....for as far as things would go all i could think of was reckless...irresponsible for myself n nothing else.....it should not hav been that way if only i hadnt given it back.....thats reckless n unforgivable.....i knw what i did was wrong n totally out of question but the fact is whats done is done...it will not change the fact that i had lost it.....i dnt knw if i like him i dnt hav any feelings at all is it really that numb in me already?????i just hav the feeling that the relationship that i'm gonna hav is either not gonna last long or its gonna be shaky....coz honestly if u ask me,when it came to me that it was about to happen i didnt feel anything nothing at all thats what i felt...at 1st i wanted to resist but later i didnt i just hung on to it.....i felt sick after that,not sick of anything not even sick of him but sick of myself for what i did.....after a while when my head is cleared of all the numbness....i start to think things through...all he wanted n needed was not the love that i could give him but the things he sought to seek in me.....i dnt knw if i should go on with it...coz for as far as i knw now things arent gonna work out well with me....as being reckless n irresponsible for once is enough....there has to always be a lesson learnt....for being a RECKLESS FOOL!!!!
