Friday, December 18, 2009
god what the bloody fuckin day i had today.....had a very nice lunch today with my cous,aunts,uncle,grandma and parents but that happiness only lasted until 3 pm until my dad had to ruin my whole entire afternoon by telling me bout college.....he says that whats the point of me takin A levels when its the same as taking form 6....might as well take the free one.....GOSH!!!!!DONT HE UNDERSTAND!!!!!he says that takin A levels is unless i'm goin overseas to study so theres no point in taking it n since he doesnt hav the money to send me there.....BUT god doesnt he knw that private colleges also allow me to complete my course in m'sia itself????n the difference in it is that the certs are totally different coz havin an overseas cert allows me to hav a better future as it is widely recognize....BUT god no he thinks its a waste of money......then after lunch he drag me all the way to TAR COLLEGE...just to ask for what they offer...then be4 the counseller even say anything to me he keeps telling her that he's got no money to send me overseas!!!!god!!!!!then he brags bout he know loads more things then they do becoz his friends kids are doin this n doin that all the yadayada crap.....ARGHHH!!!!!y cnt he just understand what i'm askin for......n i guess i hav to go through all this crap again 2mr n its not gonna make my day...n he'sgoin down to kl during x'mas n wants me to enquire in UTAR....guess it wont make my day until i agree to what he wants me to do.....NOW I HAV HALF OF MY MIND TO TELL HIM THAT I DNT WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE SINCE I'M NOT GIVEN A CHOICE TO CHOOSE WHERE I WANNA STUDY.....gosh sometimes i just really envy those orphan ...at least at the end of the day they get to choose what they want although they hav got to work harder than us with parents....but i just hav to ask for god's forgiveness for what i say bout the orphan not that i dont apprieciate my parents....but at least my mom knws what i want n is willing to let me choose but god my dad....its just so bloody frustrating....man are just so bloody complicated.......
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7:18 AM
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